Acing All The Tests That Led To My Dream Apartment
Name: Isabella Beham
Where do you reside?: Mexico City, Mexico
What is your cultural upbringing and background?: Brazilian + German American
Are you currently a Pathway Member?: Yes
What was on your manifestation list?:
-An apartment that truly reflected "city life" that was free of mold, a corner unit, pet friendly & super quiet
-Furniture & art that reflected my authentic self for less than 5k USD to furnish the whole apartment
-Gym & hot tub
-Condesa or Polanco neighborhoods
-24-hour security
-Pet friendly
-Reliable landlord
-Lights with dimmers
-A huge kitchen
-Under 1500 USD
What workshops did you use and what blocks did you discover during the DIs & workshops?: Trigger DI & Rockbottom
What expanders did you find?: I made a folder on Instagram & a board on Pinterest for a design I liked.
What tests did you face? Which did you pass? Not pass?: I looked at LOTS of apartments that didn't work for me. Initially, I only wanted a furnished place, but I realized that I wanted it to be furnished because 1) I was afraid to commit to being in one place long-term, and 2) I didn't trust my own sense of style. I found that each furnished place I looked at just didn't feel right. The design wasn't what I was looking for. I realized I was craving to express myself through design.
-One big test was a super cute studio in Condesa for an amazing price, but I passed because I wanted something bigger and the realtor who would have been my neighbor started dumping her emotional issues about failing to conceive with IVF on me, totally unprompted & out of the blue
I had initially envisioned an old, historical building. But I found that didn't work for me either for a few reasons. I was craving true city life i.e., high rise living, I wanted amenities, and I was afraid of dust & mold in a new building.
Did you experience a magic dark period? If so, tell us about it.: I saw the photos of my apartment online, and there was a 3-day gap between me reaching out and them getting back to me, then after I signed my lease, there was an extra two-week delay for me to move in.
How did your manifestation come through?: Once I finally realized that what drew me to Mexico City was city life & that I wanted a true city life experience AND I wanted it unfurnished, I found my apartment building online a few days later and KNEW I would live there. I went to see it, and it blew my mind & the realtor was so sweet & down to earth. When she took me to the rooftop garden, I almost cried because the view was everything I had ever dreamed of.
The first unit I saw got snatched up from under me, but I remained calm and trusted that this was my place. The realtor found me another unit in the building. I was having some hesitations because it was right on the edge of my budget, but when I got there, the current tenant had pictures of Rio de Janeiro, my homeland, all over the walls, which I took as a sign.
My apartment has:
-Floor- ceiling windows
-2 bed/2 bath so friends can visit
-A balcony
-A HUGE designer kitchen
-Hardwood floors & white marble
-Lights with dimmers
-Skyline Views & green views
-Private offices downstairs with special desks to cool your laptop (included in rent)
-An event space
-A rooftop bar with 360 city views
-A rooftop garden with wifi, workspaces & plugs
-A pool
-A spa with steam room, massages, hot tub, AND cold plunge (I'm a Wim Hof fanatic)
-24/7 security & doormen
-A chic restaurant with room service
-A secret speakeasy, all pink with pink velvet couches
-In Condesa, the neighborhood I've dreamed of living in since 2019
-1500 USD a month
There were legal complications due to me being a foreigner, and there were extra fees I had to pay, but I trusted the Universe completely & it all worked out. Unfortunately, there was a delay with the current tenant moving out, which meant I had to wait a full month to move in, but I just kept surrendering.
Being unfurnished, I had to manifest all of the furniture, which was causing me so much stress. I wasn't finding anything I liked & everything was soooo out of budget. I did the Trigger DI and realized I wasn't finding what I wanted because I didn't actually trust my own sense of style. I was also shaming myself for being "too feminine." Later, one of my TBM friends recommended I check out a furniture store called Gaia Design (so chic, check them out), and it turned out their showroom was a two-minute walk from my Airbnb.
I got there and realized they were having an Anniversary 65% off sale! Since I was still feeling some shame around being too feminine, I said, "Fuck it, I'm getting pink everything." I got a pink couch, a pink bed, pink flatware, & a pink velvet chair. The only thing not pink was my turquoise velvet dining room chairs. I got all the basics I needed and then some, all for 3k USD.
I still needed some decor, wine glasses & sheets, so I went to Zara home. I knew I had fully unblocked my fears around being too feminine and not trusting my inner style because when I was checking out at Zara, a girl stopped me and told me she loved my style & asked for my Instagram.
Then... a 7.1. earthquake happened. I was getting out of the shower when the building I was in started swaying back and forth & I started hearing explosions. The earthquake lasted for over a minute! After that, my nervous system went into meltdown mode. One of my TBM friends recommended I do the Rockbottom workshop since it has so much to do with earthquakes. My energy got super messed up.
Finally, the move-in day came, and my first thought, when I moved in, was, "Omg, I don't deserve this." I went into a downward spiral of low self-worth and started panicking. "What if I lose my business?" "What if my visa for Mexico gets rejected, and I lose all of this?!"
Of course, the movers broke my bed & had to send it back. Then my bed ended up being on six weeks of back order! I also started struggling to find little pieces I needed and art for the walls. I did the Uplevel workshop & Reinforcing Deservingness DI as well as Soothe DI to calm my nervous system & convince myself that I did deserve everything I was getting.
I took a deep breath and refused to settle on the small items & art I needed. I made a list of the pieces of art I wanted above my couch. I wanted it to be:
-Pink tones
-Feminine
-A painting of a woman
-Under 300 USD
A few days later, I went to the art museum with my TBM group here. There was a poster of a gorgeous naked woman in pink. I almost bought it, but I didn't because it just didn't energetically resonate, it wasn't the shape I wanted, and I didn't want to have it framed. I also wanted original art, not reproduction. A few days later, I took a wrong turn in my neighborhood and ended up at an art gallery. I had a ping to go in but kept walking because I didn't believe there would be anything affordable there. My ping got louder as I walked away, and I ended up turning around and going back. When I walked in, the owner introduced himself and explained they have art ranging from 5 dollars to 5 thousand dollars. I instantly found a gorgeous pink painting for 200 USD and bought it right away.
I then went on vacation to Brazil & continued the Uplevel workshop. I was just packing a small suitcase, but I ping told me to bring my biggest suitcase because I was going to find my next piece of art. A few days into my trip, I went to a "Hippie Fair" and fell in love with two pieces of art. One a painting of a cat, the other of a poodle that fits the aesthetic of my apartment perfectly. I negotiated with the artist and bought them for 15 USD each. They perfectly fit in my suitcase.
I then got an email that my bed was finally ready and would be delivered the day after I got back from Brazil!! I had only seen it once before buying it. When it got there, it fit my room perfectly AND was an EXACT color match for one of the blankets I had found at IKEA. I also finally took all of the boxes down from in front of my bedroom window and realized what an epic skyline view I have from my bed. Seeing all my art hung up & my bedroom finally put together, I realized that when I initially moved into my apartment, my nervous system and psyche would have rejected it.
When I moved in, I was so stressed out and at a level of low self-worth that my nervous system didn't have the space to hold these manifestations. As my nervous system calmed down & I was strengthening my deservingness through Uplevel, the other pieces I needed started showing up with ease. My apartment is not a PERFECT reflection of my authentic self. It's everything I could have imagined and more as my authentic home. My nervous system is so much calmer now, and I know the remaining pieces I need will come with ease.
How long did it take for your manifestation to come through after crafting your initial list?: about two months! But I am still manifesting a few more pieces I need
How frequently were you using the workshops and DI's when you noticed the biggest shift surrounding your manifestation?: 5x a week at least with some short breaks to integrate.
How do you incorporate this work into your life on a daily basis? Any tips, tricks or recommendations for getting the most out of it, or personalizing it?: I do the DIs daily & I rely heavily on Instagram for expanders.
If you'd like, please include your IG handle: @issyliving (I have pics and info about the process shared under the folder "Manifestations" on my Instagram
